Older

I am growing into an older woman. I am discovering and uncovering many truths and continuously developing myself in an effort to embrace this truth. Feeling as though I have arrived at an age where I no longer have use to grow, discover, and open up, can possibly hinder my ability to be rooted in wisdom and peace. I find no benefit in cursing what is a gift and that gift is to grow old.

In the climate of social media and mass sharing, there are trendy quotes of truth that I am able to access and at times cling onto. I sometimes have a tendency to get lazy when it comes to developing myself and being the inspiration that I seek. I become afraid to walk in and trust the truth of my own life and enjoy the fruits of my own labor in life. 

I sometimes find myself searching for outside influences to find validation because of insecurity. The stark reality that my mind is not as quick as it once was. My body is not as young as it once was. My ways of thinking feel comfortable and I am resistant to changing them. I tend to lack patience with myself. I tend to become sluggish with forgiving myself.

I am learning that with age can come wisdom and peace. I am learning how to become a vessel that can hold them. I am learning that wisdom and peace are not about having an influential title or gathering material things to show that I have arrived at some point of maturity in life. Wisdom and peace are not about being of a prominent social standing. Wisdom and peace aren’t attained through the approval of others. Wisdom and peace are not found in the years spent reading books or learning verses while lacking life experience and practice of virtue.

Wisdom and peace, I am learning, comes through embracing and accepting what is. I have to be willing to let go and trust what life is showing me. I sometimes have to look under, see above, and feel around to discover the many hidden treasures that are laid about in the gift of today and waiting to be realized. 

As an older woman, I am waking up inside and I feel far more free than I ever have. I am learning to laugh more, especially at myself. I am learning to expand my way of thinking. I am learning to let go without losing myself. I am learning to accept what is with compassion. I am learning to find ways to live and walk in truth when it is realized. I am learning to trust in love and the many ways it is revealed. I am learning to embrace my emotions and trust the lessons that life teaches me.  

I pray that I am able to continue to do the work that enables me to grow in grace and be a true vessel of wisdom and peace. Ase